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So...is it normal to want to cry when you see bikers taking toys strapped to the back of their hogs to needy kids? Or am I just all messed up?
it was beautiful to see giant stuffed animals clinging to leather. I mean, wow.
I need a new job, I am miserable.
There is way too much drama right now in my life, none of which I feel I have created.
I am glad Emilie is staying longer. Especially since we are getting along pretty good right now. I like that. I just wish Laura was staying longer too.
Checked my email for the first time in 19 days. First time I have really used my computer in like 3 weeks, except to watch Patch Adams last night.
I broke dpwn and got a gym pass. I run 3 miles a day, 5 days a week now. And it makes me happy because it is my happy place. No matter how I feel, I feel good there. Sore, but good.
Maybe this makes me more vain, maybe I am a worse person for it, blah blah. Right now the only things I want from life are to be intimidating and to go to law school. Both given that Brett is a part of it. But he is always a given, and I like that.
I don't know why i am set on being intimidating. The whole gym thing is probably making it worse. Maybe it is because I hate my job and am sick of being taken advantage of. Meh.
I am driving home on the 13th hopefully. I will be home for about 5 days, which isn't long I realize, but I gotta work and pay bills and stuff.
Sorry for not calling people when i was home. I was with my family in the mountians nearly the entire time and I wouldn't have been able to see anyone anyways, so it made it easier for me than stressing over not having a car and seeing people. Christmas I have my car, so I guess there is no excuse.
But you know, no one called me when I was home either. So part of me doesn't feel too guilty.
Almost done Christmas shopping, very poor this year so like crappy gifts for all. Wish I could buy friend gifts this year, but I am finacially screwed. Lucky for sarah her birthday is coming up, haha.
So I guess this is the update for the month, haha. I just get so damn busy, when I get home I just want to sleep, and any time I do have I usually don't want to spend it in front of the computer.
So yeah. My mom is moving in the end of January to Temecula, which is going to make this christmas break even more hectic (aka, packing and going through my stuff) and going to make it even more important to see people because my home in the RC will no longer be.
So if you wanna hang out, please call me so I know. I really want to see the people who want to see me. So yeah. Happy past thanksgiving, happy future x-mas. And if you need to ride to sacramento after x-mas, give me a call, I can take you one way maybe, haha.
2003-12-06 | 4:09 p.m.