what makes a perfect day. today.
Wow. Sometimes life just makes me speechless. I mean, a part of me thinks that there can be no such thing as fate or that maybe we are all conected to each other by some force that is above science. Well, not entirely above science, but above science as we know it. But then little things happen and I just have to wonder if we really can have connections with other human beings on levels we can't fathom with our minds.
How do you explain thinking of someone so far away and have that person need you to be thinking of them at that almost precise moment. Well, i suppose there are alot of ways to explain it, like maybe we think about each other at the same time and need each other alot, and that we just never realize it.
I could be thinking of Sarah at any given time in the day, and even though we really haven't spoken in person or phone for a while, and even though we hardly ever speak on line, we could be thinking of each other at the same moment in time, and we just happen to mention it every once and awhile and the effects are amazing.
I find it so facinating that as humans we get so caught up in coincidences, and make so much of something that we can so readily expalin with our sciences and theories. If you think about it, a coincidence is nothing really amazing or impressive, but in our minds they have this amazing effect, almost a phenomena, and they have the ability to alter us in sometimes powerful ways.
Maybe it is the affirmation of my own feelings and beliefs that add to this experience. I don't think in that single moment I read your response, anyhting in the world could have made me happier.
And despite all my far fetched beliefs in science and lack of high powers, I know that I have some sort of crazy conneciton with you I have with no one else. And that has got to ebt he best thing ever.
Today was a great day, beside how miserably cold it was, and how wet it was, I had a good day. I am just about caught up in school again, I am thinking about starting some community service projects through my law internship, and things with me and Brett just couldn't get much better. And, I made awesome chicken parmisan tonight, which was nothing short of amazing I might brag(partially because I was not sure that it would even taste good before it was finished). I have the whole midterm train coming up soon (actually, starting thursday).
I have two religious studies courses this semester. One taught by a fanatic protestant, and the other by a nationally highly respected ethicist. One is comparitive, which I love because you just examine and explore and you truely can learn alot about yourself, which is why I am taking these type courses. The other one I don't feel so great about. This guy seems to have his own agenda, and while the course is called ethics in religion, I think it is more like ethics in white protestant christianity, which really does nothing for me except despise the content more than I previously do. I understand that an educated person needs to be well versed in the bible in ordered to truely comprehend western civilizationa nd the evolution of modern society. I don't understand, however, how reading a text called navagating right and wrong, writeen from a protesatant prospective, which is extremely biased, is going to help me obtain a better world view and help me to shape my belif system and ethics in order to be better educatedto make decisions that do less toharm the well being of society.
Perhaps a lot of rambling tonight. Not working as much is really doing alot for me. I have alot less money, yes, but I am learning to put appropriate values on "things", to be less of a compulsive shopper, and to just be happy with people and not things. To be happy with ideas and thinking and having freedom to be my own person, instead of just a slave to an ambition to get to another place. It feells good to think for myself again.
Which is timely, because I am going to have some papers coming up, and I am not sure I could be able to produce anything of scholarly merit in the condition I was in.
Well, a thanks is in order for bearing with me, and all my scatteredness. I hope among all the bad spelling and grammer, you found something worth starining you eyes at your radiating monitor for this long. I wish you all a good mid semester, and that we can all hang on until, alas, one more school year has passed us by.
2004-02-17 | 10:31 p.m.