Sweet words
Sometimes I wonder if I made a huge mistake about Brett and I should have given more time to try to improve things. He makes me wonder if he was the best thing out there for me, and that I am never going to find someone who treats me as well as he does. Here is what prompted this:
“I care for her and I really miss her. She is a beautiful person... one of the most amazing people I’ve ever met, inside and out. She can get any person she wanted if she put her time into it. Anyone. She is stunning sometimes... when she looks at you with wide eyes. There’s something so alluring about her and its noticed everywhere she goes. Complex, intriguing, not ordinary at all. Her features are so elegant when she smiles, when she laughs. So intelligent but so beautiful. She’s just stunning, just fascinating. I hope she blushes if she reads this, that was always when she was her most captivating. I loved her from the deepest part of myself. She is still one of the best things that has ever happened to me, where would I be if I never met her in that lobby? We were so happy. I know I would treat her 1000 times better now than before. Maybe better than anyone.”
That was in his Diaryland page the other day, and I wonder if anyone will ever feel that way about me again. Maybe that is the way the world is and this is the best I can get. The world is a very imperfect place and maybe that was a close as perfect as I could get.
But I am attracted to other people, which is a big problem. But maybe I gave up too early on a good thing.
Only time can tell. So I have to find someone who actually believes all those things Brett said…because I am thinking that person is rare. (Hell, I am not even sure if I believe them).
2005-01-16 | 3:38 p.m.